So many pit holes... Still standing..

Today was a tiring day... I met up with two of my closest friends in college ; Michelle and Karamdeep for dinner at Pizza Hut at Sentul Boulevard.It was a fun evening though. Could have had a longer conversation with them but thanks to the bloody jam at Mahameru Highway, I was unable to do so. I reached there almost 45 minutes late.

but the reason why I am here today is not to talk about what we ate and what we joked about.. Which was very relaxing.. The most relaxing period I had today,atleast... It was another hectic day in the office.. booking invoices, checking general ledger codes and inspecting the invoices.. and without fail, something bad must happen to me in the office. I mean those people there don't really respect me like their colleagues, when they want their things to be done fast, they will order you around and when you need their assistance, they'll say they are busy and just because I am nice and polite to everyone, I start to feel the slap on my face when they start to take me for granted. I admit I can be ego at times and not to mention stubborn but I have been patient for the past 2 1/2 months. I mean, why can't you grown up woman give me a break. Just because I am the only male accountant there, that doesn't make me an alien.. Ok, fine.. I have learnt to take in Ivy's advice that it is the working world and we cannot be too bothered about challenges like this. But I really felt demoralised today. Honestly saying, if it wasn't for the pay I am getting.. I wouldn't be so patient... I have been patient this whole month though and I really don't know how to release out my frustrations other than writing it all down here. University applications, colleagues and job loads.. everything some into one.. I am surprised that I actually survived for the past 2 1/2 months.. Anyway, not everyone in the office is bad.. there are ppl who do cheer me up.. Thanks Wei Kuen for the treat today.. Wasn't expecting that from you but I will find a way to treat you back before I leave that miserable hell place.. Sadly, I am not happy working there.. Everyday I wake up in the morning hoping that the day will end fast and I get my pay soon. It's not that I didn't put my 101% in my job but what's the point?! Noone appreciates it. There was once this woman in my office said " You are just doing booking only,what.. it is not as hard as mine or any of us".. For your information SISTER! I have taken over Ida's job.. atleast 70% of it.. I am doing more than I was assigned to do initially...and I am also working for the comapnay like you do!.. without people like me can you even continue doing your job? It's like a missing piece of a puzzle without the IR person. So don't think AR or AP people are the only important people. Everyone is Important. With that statement, it has demoralised me further , taking away my spirit of working but from time to time I wasn't affected but I am getting a bit immuned and bored with this kinda stuffs.. Not to mention, bored with that office, the people and my job!

There comes another group of people.. I have two dissatisfied friend.. One is dissatisfied because he can't do the thing he wants and the second one is complaining that he can't go to a more expensive university despite the fact that his parents are sponsoring his studies in Australia.Firstly, I am not going to say anything bad about their situations and I am definitely not those type who bitch about friends.. Especially in my blog.. I have just one thing to say, humans are never satisfied with what they have.. I even argued with my mum because I can't study ion Australia and I was very persistent about it.. but after being stepped, slapped and advised by many.. my ego level started to fall and I am not even bothered whether I can go to Australia anymore.. as long as I get into a good University and a University which I can afford.. Or should I say my mum coukd afford.. because she is the one paying and she is the one who is willing to fork out her hard earned money for my education.. so I cannot be too selfish after all.. although I really want to go to Australia.. I can be an ass sometimes.. even I hate myself for having such strong will.. but I have decided.. I can go there someday.. Not today but someday..when I am capable to finance myself to study abroad.. besides..It's not that mum is not allowing me to go to Uni.. its just that you can't get what you want all the time.. life is fair.. I am already satisfied enough if I am given a place in NUS.. If I am lucky enough, a scholarship.. To be honest, I am still worried and stressed up about the outcome.. checking the mails and all.. but. isn't that normal?.. To my friends out there, everyone has different challenges in life.. some have mild ones and some are really challenged, even worse than what we are experiencing.. By taking that into consideration, your problem is not that severe after all, right?

Seriously, I am really tired of my job and I need my holiday soon.. 3 months working in a finance department.. It's time for me to take a rest before I start my hectic life in University. I really don't want to regret at the end of the day for not having some time for myself during this break.. PS: I wasn't directly pin-pointing to anyone and if I offended you in any way.. I apologise..


Tired yet still fighting,

VicK